our borrowed days, memories that might be forgotten, reflections that could disappear when the surface is disturbed.
Friday, June 5, 2009
Whoops, & Poem
First of all, I accidentally deleted my blog roll last night, so it might take me some time to replace that, since I have no idea what most people's blog address is. I may email you for it, but again--all deletions were unintentional. Your writings are valued.
Second, I now have two blogs written, but have been too lazy to upload pictures onto my computer. So I'll get something up tonight. (I may archive the two already written and write something new today about Angela and I's experience in Cincinnati this morning.)
I feel so guilty that I'm going to do something I normally don't, and post a poem I wrote in the last couple of weeks. It's lighter than most of my more recent work, and has not been revised yet.
Summer in a College Town
The first warm day since October & the first
girls are displayed on lawns by ten, able to rise
early only for this, skin offered
to a fickle star, faces & stomachs
pale as birch bark before peeling, others
strangely dark, evidence of settling
for a false messiah. Eyes shuttered
behind dark glasses as others gaze
into the blinding white of open books
pretending at study, & all
lounge like cats under glass or
serphents along black asphalt—
& the young men who gather
on porches, or pause
their already slow walks
down sidewalks to stare, hungry
as animals wakening from hibernation—
daughters & sons spring
from these passing bodies.
That's the end of the poem. Summertime and Sexuality! Revisions will probably be based around trying to bring out more of a spacey theme (as in, outer space), and last night I thought about changing the title to "Heavenly Bodies," which is potentially the worst title in the history of poetry. (Although Mary Oliver has a million poems titled "Percy", "Percy #6", etc...Percy is the name of her dog.)
Oh more piece of news: Away We Go was released in select cities today, you should go see it if it's playing near you.
Friday, May 1, 2009
So, Shoot Me...I thought Synecdoche, New York was better than The Wrestler
I guess there aren’t really any rules for making a character into a Christ metaphor, but for me, there needs to be more involved than allusions made between said character and Christ, feeling bad for the character, and then the character dying. In Gran Torino, Walt died for someone else. Through his death, the Vietnamese family found freedom. Randy’s death was more of an abandonment than anything—he had a daughter, and a woman that was arguably starting to love him. She too was getting older, and her body could no longer keep up with her profession—should she have committed suicide? (Which is basically what Randy did.)
Randy lacked the courage to live up to the expectations either relationship demanded. So he “Ram Jams” his buddy off a corner-post, knowing full well that his heart is going to go kaploosh. Was Randy’s a sad existance? Yes. And the movie was a striking portrait of a man who could do only one thing well, and had nothing left when that part of his life was gone—Springsteen’s proverbial one-trick pony. The Wrestler is a good film—but not great.
Synecdoche, New York, however, is unlike any film in recent memory. Written and directed by Charlie Kaufman (the first time he’s done both), it works on emotions in a strange, and fascinating way. (For example, I think of the weird and sudden sadness I experienced at the end of Wes Anderson’s The Life Aquatic, when Bill Murray sees the shark, and everyone in the sub puts a hand on his shoulder and he says something about fifth grade being his favorite year. Why did that make me want to cry? You could argue that it’s because the best year of someone’s life was over at 11, but I suspect there’s more going on…) S, NY is endlessly reflexive, to the point of being unbearable, but just when you think you can’t take any more, the bizarre (but strangely resonant, I think, especially toward the end) surrealism is taken up another level. (I was writing in the second-person there, but rather than fix it, I’ll just add this—I loved it. But it’s somewhat avant-garde (read: artsy), and I think many people would lose patience with it very quickly.)
It’s about a play-write (Philip Seymour Hoffman) who receives a MacArthur “Genius” Fellowship, and proceeds to start creating a play that closely resembles real life as possible. He builds a replica of NY in a theater, hires actors to play himself and people he knows...maybe you can see where this is headed, but some of that is reflected in the movie’s title. “Synecdoche” is a poetic term for a part symbolizing a whole, for instance: farmhand. The hand represents the person. Anyway. Philip Seymour Hoffman is brilliant the entire time, there’s some really incredible writing, and if you have any patience for somewhat incomprehensible films, stick it out until the end, the emotional payoff is (I think) worth it.
Cheers.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Poker According to Žižek
Slavoj Žižek is a Marxist-communist philosopher from former Yugoslavia, and I’m currently reading his book Welcome to the Desert of The Real for my Secrecy and Spectacle course. (The full course title is “Secrecy and Spectacle from Cold War to War on Terror.” It’s easily the most influential course I’ve ever taken up to this point.) The book is basically about how the illusions of Americans should have been shattered after the 9/11 terrorist attacks, but instead Americans used the attacks as an opportunity to create more illusions. This is an incredibly basic summary—so basic it’s actually wrong, but there’s really no other way to simplify it. Anyway--as you can see from the title of this post, this is in no way what I was planning on writing about, but since I’ve gone this far, I’ll go ahead and summarize what Žižek means.
Žižek believes that America pre-9/11 lived in a fantasy land of Us and Them thinking (Again, the problem of dichotomies. And “Them” equals everyone existing outside of the U.S.), and that when our own country was attacked, it was an opportunity to realize that we are part of a world where terrible things are happening. (For instance, all the Bosnian women who were terrorized, the mass killings in Congo—these are all things that happen to them.) Žižek claims that America did not take this opportunity, that instead, “it [America] opted to reassert its traditional ideological commitments: out with feelings of responsibility and guilt towards the impoverished Third World, we are the victims now!”
Anyway, Žižek fills the book with these little anecdotes and jokes he’s picked up from who knows where, and Saturday night there was a poker game at my house, and Žižek’s words kept bubbling up. Every aspect of the game corresponded to his text—part of me now wonders, in fact, if this book is actually incognito poker theory, only disguised as political theory.
1. Welcome to the Desert of the Real
The Desert of the Real is a place one ends up after illusion—or reality—is shattered. I lead many players to this desolate place Saturday night, as what they knew as reality—their ideological constructs—were shattered.
Playing your pocket jacks when there’s face cards on the table? Welcome to the Desert of the Real. Raising me on two pair when I’m holding an open-ended straight? I’m all in, and I catch my card. I rake your chips, and the only thing you can do is stare blankly at the table, pretending not to be upset. Pretending is all you can do, because you have nothing left. Welcome to the Desert of the Real.
2. Economics Always Trumps Politics
This is how Žižek explains America royally screwing Iran from the 1950’s on, and how I explain pretending to have nothing when I truly hit trips of the flop. You raise, I reraise—sorry “friend.” Secrecy and Spectacle exist not only in government, but at my kitchen table as well. Welcome to the dictates of capitalism—and subsequently, The Desert of the Real. It’s hot out there, maybe you should have another Guinness before you buy back in.
3. A man must desire life like water, but drink death like wine.
This is an idea attributed to G.K. Chesterton—the soldier surrounded by enemies can’t cling to life, or he won’t escape. “He must seek his life in a spirit of furious indifference to it.”
Many players experience a chip flux, where they go really low or high. In either case, the reaction can be the same—to tighten their greedy fist around their pile. Inevitably, this results in chips slowly being depleted. The trick is to drink poker death like wine, make your enemies look down the barrel of your all-in. Force a show-down where only one person gets to keep their money, and their ideology--and the other is left numb and alone in The Desert of the Real.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Yesterday in Church
The boy in church yesterday reminded me very much of myself. I remember following The Wheel of Time series starting when I was about ten years old, and discussing the books with friends as dorky as myself until the next volume was released. (And, since dorkiness knows no age, every now and then I’d bump into someone at the bookstore, or a friend’s parent, who read the series as well. Always a jolt of excitement, to meet a fellow lover of The Wheel of Time!)
Bringing the book to church was a classic maneuver by my little pal in front of me. It was a nostalgic moment. But, since he wasn’t pouring over it in his lap, either mom had set some strict regulations, or he was purely a car reader. I remember church being a great space for reading Robert Jordan. My older sister’s volleyball and basketball games were harder.
My love for fantasy started to fade away sometime after I went to college, and eventually I stopped following all my favorite authors except for Robert Jordan. I had read The Wheel of Time for over a decade, and I was determined to read it until the last novel was released, and I figured out once and for all what would happen to Rand—would he defeat the dark forces at Shayol Ghul? Would he have to give his life in the process? My heart said no, but what about all the old prophecies? (I had a Wheel of Time reference book to help me keep track of these important questions.)
When Crossroads of Twilight was released, I was a freshman in college, and I bunkered down in my dorm room and didn’t leave until it was finished. By the time Knife of Dreams was released, I had stopped checking the WOT website for updates, and didn’t find out until I was in Alaska. I hitch-hiked to Anchorage, and the first thing I did was go to a local bookstore to finish before I flew home. Book twelve, A Memory of Light, was supposed to be the final book in the series, the end of a seventeen year odyssey, and when I was in Africa, I checked online to see if a release date had been set—and instead, I saw a picture of Robert Jordan, with the letters R.I.P. beneath it, and a date from a month or so before.
Throughout the sermon yesterday, I kept wondering—does this little boy know? Should I stop him after the service and say, you know RJ’s dead, don’t you? That he never finished?
The story is that on his deathbed, RJ told someone the ending, and that he kept prodigious notes on the final book, so another writer was hired to finish the books as RJ originally intended-- part one (yes, the “final” volume has now been separated in three parts) owill be released this fall.
I don’t have much time for reading fantasy these days, and I don’t have all my old novels around anymore. Before Angela and I got married, I loaded all my old fantasy novels into the trunk of my Grand Am, drove to Hyde Brothers books in Ft. Wayne, and sold them for four-hundred dollars.
This was actually not a bad price for memories.
Monday, April 6, 2009
Quick Pics

This is supposed to be a picture of Jen, Lane, and me on my visit over to Washington Court House. Of course thirty minutes into my drive back to Oxford I realized I never took my camera out of my purse! So here is a picture from Jen's wedding. I thought it was fitting because she looks just as beautiful now as she did on her wedding day with the cutest little baby bump.
We caught up and went shopping with Lane which you can't really tell from the picture:)

On the right is my candid-ish picture of Brett, Grant, Emily, and Bethany walking out of the Cincinnati Museum of Art. Bethany drove out to our place and then we went to Cincinnati to see Grant and Emily at their beautiful home in Kentucky.
Emily is sporting her new haircut which I think is very fun! I did more talking with Emily at the museum than actually checking out the art so I don't have much else to say about it. The two in the bottom picture absorbed more art.


So, Brett I realize that I posted as soon as you said, "I am going to put up a post today" and walked out the door. I just felt the need to put up some pictures. . . today.
You just go ahead and post today and it will be like a joint post only my bottom half of the post will have pictures:)
- Angela
Friday, March 27, 2009
Film Update
I've devised a formula to predict whether or not this movie will be worth going to see:
Focus Features distributing the film + Sam Mendes directing + a screenplay by Dave Eggers and Vendela Vida + a cast that includes John Krasinski, Maya Rudolph, Jeff Daniels, Maggie Gyllenhaal, and Allison Janey = The perfect storm for what is now the most anticipated film of 2009.
Trailer available by clicking on title.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Where The Wild Things Are
But, I thought people might be interested to see that the trailer for Where The Wild Things Are, directed by Spike Jonze, was just released, and it looks pretty good. Obviously the screenwriters had to take a lot of liberties since the book is short, but as I was watching the credits flash by I thought I saw a name I knew, so I backtracked and sure enough...Dave Eggers cowrote the screenplay with Spike Jonze!
Wouldn't miss it for the world. You can access the trailer on apple's website by clicking on the colored link above, but you have to have quicktime.
Salman Rushdie blog forthcoming.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Here comes the bride. . . and the groom

Breakfast at the Stricklands!! Larisa and Cameron came over to Oxford last Friday to hang out and take care of some official wedding business.
This is a picture before we left to pick out and pick up the groom and groomsmen's wedding attire. We made our way to Cincinnati and after three malls, lots of calls about whose size is what, and a drive to see what is behind Mt. Rumpke the trip was a success!! I am excited to post the pictures later this summer.

Larisa made a BIG brunch for us before we headed out for the mall. I took a picture because it was seriously impressive. Brett and I were super excited about the left over ingredients to try out her fun skillet creation on our own. The bread on the plate is French toast that she made out of like Cinnimon swirled bread.

Anyway it was fun to have Larisa and Cameron stay for the weekend. I am excited for their wedding and can't believe they graduate in like a month! Exciting times!!
-> Larisa and her Matron of Honor. I used to fight that title but I am embracing it now. It used to sound homely but now I really like it.
I may be posting again very soon as I am leaving tomorrow morning to visit a friend! So if Brett posts with another no picture blog I will balance it out soon with more pictures:)
- Angela
Sunday, March 15, 2009
My Trip West in Review
Some people might grimace at the prospect of fifteen hours on the road, but I enjoy it. It gives me space to think and listen to music that I normally don’t have the time or inclination to sit through. For example. On the way to Scottsbluff, I listened to every album by Okkervil River, which I consider a strange sort of accomplishment. Since the drive back was to Toledo, OH, instead of Oxford, the trip was going to take longer, and my plan was to listen to every Bruce Springsteen album in chronological order. Almost inconceivable, I know. I thought I could, possibly, be the first to achieve this—until I realized I still don’t own Greetings from Asbury Park, N.J. and my computer didn’t transfer Devils & Dust to my ipod.
An epic feat for another day.
I’m always interested in what music other people choose to listen to, so if you’re like me, here’s a list of complete albums I worked through—indulge. And if you don’t care, skip the list and proceed to my dramatic account of camping in the Black Hills.
Complete Album’s listened to on Drive West
Joe Purdy—You Can Tell Georgia
Joe Purdy—Take My Blanket and Go
David Bowie—Best of 69-74
The Hold Steady—Separation Sunday
The Hold Steady—Almost Killed Me
Bruce Springsteen—Working on a Dream
Bruce Springsteen—Magic
Heartless Bastards—The Mountain
Okkervil River—Black Sheep Boy / Black Sheep Boy Appendix
Okkervil River—Don’t Fall in Love with Everyone You See
Okkervil River—Down the River of Golden Dreams
Okkervil River—The Stage Names
Okkervil River—The Stand-ins
Okkervil River—Stars too Small to Use
Okkervil River—Sleep and Wake-up Songs
Frightened Rabbit—The Midnight Organ Fight
Complete Albums listened to on Return Drive East
Santogold—Santogold
The Rural Alberta Advantage—Hometowns
The Hold Steady—Stay Positive
Neil Young—Tonight’s the Night
Matt Pond P.A.—Several Arrows Later
Black Mountain—In the Future
Bruce Springsteen—We Shall Overcome: The Seeger Sessions
Bruce Springsteen—Born to Run
Bruce Springsteen—Born in the U.S.A.
Bruce Springsteen—Darkness on the Edge of Town
Bruce Springsteen—The River
Bruce Springsteen—Nebraska
Bruce Springsteen—Tunnel of Love
Bruce Springsteen—Magic
Bruce Springsteen—Working on a Dream
Bruce Springsteen—The Rising
Not represented here are the multitude of miscellanious songs I enjoyed; and, I also feel compelled to explain my only major musical failure—when I decided to listen to the best of Van Morrison. For some reason, I couldn’t handle anything after “And it Stoned Me”.
Kyle and I had planned on leaving Nebraska to go camping in the Black Hills outside Deadwood, South Dakota. My arrival, however, brought with it a cold dose of reality.
“I’ve heard there’s still quite a bit of snow up there,” he informed me as we considered camping strategies.
“Man against nature,” I replied.
This discussion reoccurred in various forms as the time to leave drew closer. In truth, I wasn’t really thinking—sometime in college, I learned that I have the interesting ability (power, perhaps? I’ll let you be the judge) to completely disconnect with reality. That’s a blog for another time.
As Kyle and I drove north-east through Wyoming, we passed small clusters of antelope, snow guards (wooden structures used to prevent snow accumulation on the highway), endless expanses of ranch-land, and exactly one other vehicle. The terrain grew rockier, and soon small clusters of pine dotted the landscape out the truck window—as well as large snow drifts.
After another hour of driving, wedged in by high canyons, we passed a mountain goat staring down at us from a high ledge, and the first road sign buried to the top of the post in snow. I thought I could sense a growing desperation from Kyle.
It was getting dark, and the campgrounds were closed “for the season”, so we drove down a winding dirt road, and eventually following a two-track into the by-then dark forest, which was illuminated enough by the moon, stars, and reflective snow, that we could see a rooty patch of ground not covered in snow.
We set up camp for the night, made a fire, and I ate a can of soup. The air was cold, but there was barely any wind—really, it wasn’t as bad as we had been expecting, and sitting by the fire, the moon visible through a circle of looming pine trees, coyotes moaning in the hills around us (I didn’t want to write “howling in the hills”, but now it sounds like the coyotes were in heat.…be assured, it was only typical coyote howling.), it was actually quite pleasant.
Me, After Setting Up Camp for the Night
(Water froze and Camera Died Shortly After)
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Insights on "Church Shopping"
I read this article today (which doesn't mention anything about dichotomies), and thought it was interesting-- it's enigmatic in a refreshing way, discussing a peculiar trait that's arisen in the Christian world (prepare yourself for another slate.com plug, sorry), in a non-christian publication.
The popular media (should I have said "secular?") usually discusses Christianity in very specific avenues, about very specific issues (read: sex scandals, church shootings, christianity portrayed as a "hate group")--this article is remarkable (worth remarking on) because it considers an unsensational issue worth writing about. Perhaps because of the Obamas, who are mentioned in the beginning?
Anyway-- forgive my generalizations and reflexive parenthesis-- the full article is short, but here's an excerpt:
One in seven adults changes churches each year, and another one in six attends a handful of churches on a rotating basis, according to the Barna Group, a marketing research firm that serves churches. Church shopping isn't a matter of merely changing congregations: A survey by the Pew Forum on Religious and Public Life last year indicated that 44 percent of American adults have left their first religious affiliation for another. "Constant movement characterizes the American religious marketplace," a survey summary said.